I hit a turning point in my life when I…
It seems my life has been a very curvy road. I don't really see it as making turns. I believe I have been on the same road most of my life it has just taken curves to get around some of the obstacles along the way. It's funny with the curves you can't see what's coming as you move along the road, so some things come at you as a big surprise.
At one point I came to a screeching stop. That occurred with the death of my first husband. I wasn't sure for awhile if I could get restarted. The restart was very slow and bumpy. I finally got back up to cruising speed, until the next set of curves came along.
I expect there will be many more curses along this road I call life. I hope I have the ability to continue to navigate them.
I think maybe I made this post a little more serious than I intended. I have been contemplating I few things recently. I am thinking about the changes that are going to happen. My youngest son graduates high school tomorrow, he will move away to college in a couple of months. I will be coming upon age 59 soon. I haven't lived in my house without one of my children since I was 18 years old. By having the huge age difference in my third and fourth child it has been a long road of mothering. My third child was a senior in high school when my youngest was born so there were no gaps. It is just weird to think about. I have had a lifetime of being a mother, who will I be now?
Also last night my older sons had to have their dog, Boomer, a huge black lab, put to sleep. My sons have lived together for well over a decade and Boomer has been a constant companion. Boomer was three days short of 14 years, 3 months. He has been a part of my sons lives since he was a puppy. They have been trying to decide when the right time was for over a month now. The decision came quickly when he took a turn for the worse during the night on Wednesday. They tried treating him for 24 hours, and after about 18 hours the vet said it wasn't working,
Boomer has been there for them through all the bad times over the last 14 years. He has been a best friend to the two of them. When they have had breakups Boomer was always there to comfort them. I wish I had a picture of Boomer to post but I haven't taken one for several years. Boomer was ready for a long and deserved rest.
So, I think the events going on in my life have made me much more serious than normal. Sorry if I depressed anyone. Life's curves bring good times and bad times. Sometimes they are combined, as in my son's graduation. I am so happy that he has done so well, and he is ready to get on with his life. I am also sad because that part of my life is changing. I will so miss having him here all the time, but as I well know, life just keeps moving along. I know that once he moves to college he will never be the same, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. It's just hard for a mom and dad. I may be moving into an area of the road where the traffic has thinned out and slowed down a bit.
On a good note, he received another scholarship yesterday at the awards program. He got $5,000 for being the top boy scholar/athlete. We were all happy about that!!!
I am going to concentrate on getting healthy over the next few months, and I am going to try to get my husband to work on his health. I have noticed that he is gaining weight. My son has also pointed out that dad is getting heavier. My husband has been about 15 pounds overweight for the last few years. Nothing major, but I think he is eating more and gaining weight because he is stressing over our son moving away. He is really having a hard time with it. I hope to get him more focused on his health. The problem is you have to make that choice on your own. When someone tries to pressure you it doesn't work.