I know my weigh-in today is not going to go well. I started out last week just fine, but mid week I just totally blew it. I didn't exercise like I should. I didn't do anything right. I know I am starting over again today. I think it is going to be important to start with a fresh look and not look back. I don't want to get depressed by getting on the scale. I know I had way too much salt so I will probably be way up. It will take a few days to get that out of my system and get rid of the water gain.
I have to go to the funeral home today. My best friend of about 30 years lost her father last week. I am so sad for her, they were very close.
I also got a call from my doctor last week and Friday I have to go for a biopsy. My pap smear came back with abnormal cells. That is probably why I started eating. I really don't think it is going to be bad. I am pretty optimistic. It just makes me a little nervous, the unknown is always a little scary. A few prayers going my direction couldn't hurt!
I did walk yesterday afternoon, the weather was absolutely beautiful in Indiana. I felt like I was still in Florida, (well, I can dream can't I?) It was about 75 and sunny. My son and I took our little Sophie (our dog) a walk. She missed us so much when we were gone. She has been crying every time one of us leaves the house without her. She was so happy to have us back home.
I have been thinking a lot about my eating. I have to get more serious! If I don't I am still going to be at the same level all summer.
I need to up my exercise too. I know I have lots of things to do and several important events coming up, but I can't allow everything to sideline my healthy habits.
I really feel as if my body is in the worst shape of my life. I am not at the highest weight, but things just seem to not look very good any more. I used to work out consistently even when my weight wasn't great, so I had much more body tone.
Every time I get near a mirror I see the results of not working out like I should.
Wearing less clothes on vacation I was able to see how bad my body had gotten over the winter. I did wear a bathing suit every day and enjoy myself and tried not to be too self-conscious, thinking I am going to change this when I get home.
The change starts now!!!
My weight - in for the week is
Starting weight - 184.5
Week one - 180.0
Week two - 179.5
Week three - 179.0
Week four - 178.5
Week five - 177.0
Week six - 176.0
Week seven - skipped, was on vacation
Week eight - 181.5
Well there goes, 5.5 pound gain after vacation, like I said I know it's of lot of water gain, due to the salt. This just means I will have a big loss next week. Right?? Come on, I need some encouragement here!
I would rather be posting pictures of the beach than this stinking scale. At least it is still weight 3 pounds light so it doesn't show me the real number.