I know my weigh-in today is not going to go well. I started out last week just fine, but mid week I just totally blew it. I didn't exercise like I should. I didn't do anything right. I know I am starting over again today. I think it is going to be important to start with a fresh look and not look back. I don't want to get depressed by getting on the scale. I know I had way too much salt so I will probably be way up. It will take a few days to get that out of my system and get rid of the water gain.
I have to go to the funeral home today. My best friend of about 30 years lost her father last week. I am so sad for her, they were very close.
I also got a call from my doctor last week and Friday I have to go for a biopsy. My pap smear came back with abnormal cells. That is probably why I started eating. I really don't think it is going to be bad. I am pretty optimistic. It just makes me a little nervous, the unknown is always a little scary. A few prayers going my direction couldn't hurt!
I did walk yesterday afternoon, the weather was absolutely beautiful in Indiana. I felt like I was still in Florida, (well, I can dream can't I?) It was about 75 and sunny. My son and I took our little Sophie (our dog) a walk. She missed us so much when we were gone. She has been crying every time one of us leaves the house without her. She was so happy to have us back home.
I have been thinking a lot about my eating. I have to get more serious! If I don't I am still going to be at the same level all summer.
I need to up my exercise too. I know I have lots of things to do and several important events coming up, but I can't allow everything to sideline my healthy habits.
I really feel as if my body is in the worst shape of my life. I am not at the highest weight, but things just seem to not look very good any more. I used to work out consistently even when my weight wasn't great, so I had much more body tone.
Every time I get near a mirror I see the results of not working out like I should.
Wearing less clothes on vacation I was able to see how bad my body had gotten over the winter. I did wear a bathing suit every day and enjoy myself and tried not to be too self-conscious, thinking I am going to change this when I get home.
The change starts now!!!
My weight - in for the week is
Starting weight - 184.5
Week one - 180.0
Week two - 179.5
Week three - 179.0
Week four - 178.5
Week five - 177.0
Week six - 176.0
Week seven - skipped, was on vacation
Week eight - 181.5
Well there goes, 5.5 pound gain after vacation, like I said I know it's of lot of water gain, due to the salt. This just means I will have a big loss next week. Right?? Come on, I need some encouragement here!
I would rather be posting pictures of the beach than this stinking scale. At least it is still weight 3 pounds light so it doesn't show me the real number.
This number is in the red zone. I need to get out of the red zone quickly!
Well, that sucks, doesn't it? Remember this, next time you go on vacation. LOL
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about the pap results. Will definitely pray for you, Betty.
I'm still trying to get organized so I'm a little slow responding. I really want to thank you for your prayers.
DeleteSounds like you need a MORNING HUG! Will keep you in my prayers as well. I also go in soon, for the weigh in. I am feeling discouraged as well.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the hug and the prayers!
DeleteNext week will be better!!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your friend's loss and I will definitely keep you in my prayers for your tests
Thanks for the prayers!!!
DeleteAnd you will be out of the red zone before you know it. It's hard to get into a slump of sorts and then find a way to pull yourself back out. You will find the very thing that works for you! (Praying that it's all water weight!) It's great meeting you! Here from UBP13. Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by! I am going to get out of the red zone and soon. Some determination here!
DeleteI have to weigh tomorrow. I usually write my post in advance and just update my total but I don't even feel like it. I will post on Wednesday but I'm not writing it until after I weigh tomorrow morning. I hope there isn't too much damage. Dangit. I had a biopsy earlier this year for the same reason. They are just being thorough. I worried too and everything was fine. ;-)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement! Hope your weigh-in is better than mine.
DeleteYou are doing great! Do you link up with Katie J? Check my blog Tues and Thurs. We have a great group of women supporting each other in weightloss and exercise and you should link up, too. Thanks for stopping by my blog for the Ultimate Blog Hop. I found so many great blogs last year and I'm thrilled to link up with you!
ReplyDeleteLaurie
I will check your blog soon and link up soon. Sounds like a fun group of women. Thank you for stopping by.
DeleteI FINALLY linked up today on Bloglovin'! Now I can catch up on your posts.
DeleteHappy Sunday,
Laurie
Lulu and Daisy
We all understand!! I feel a lot of your same emotions in the ebb and flow of trying to get in shape. Just jump right back into things tomorrow. Give yourself a day to "get fed up enough". :) I'll remember you in my prayers regarding your test results.
ReplyDeleteXOXO,
Meredith
Thanks for the prayers, and yes I think the shock really got me motivated. So maybe it was good for me!
DeleteStill loosing my vacation weight. I am now close to my pre-vacation weight now, but I lost 3 weeks.
ReplyDeleteKeep on going!
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Tim Brannan
The Other Side and The Witch
Red Sonja: She-Devil with a Sword
The Freedom of Nonbelief
Keep at it Timothy and thanks for stopping by. We are going to get this!!
DeleteI hope everything works out with your pap results. Sorry to hear that it came back negative. I think that you are doing great! And just so you know you are probably motivating so many people to make better choices. :) Today is my workout day, and I wasn't really feeling up to it, but I am going to push through, and get it done. You're doing great Betty! I wish you the best of luck with everything.
ReplyDeleteThanks Stephanie, you are so great!! I appreciate all your +1's and your friendship.
DeleteHi Betty! Of course, a bunch of it is water weight so don't be so terrified.
ReplyDeleteI was recently looking a photos of myself 10 years ago. I think age, regardless of weight, really changes a figure. I have to exercise much harder than I used to in order to keep a good figure. But at least I have a fun time at the gym.
:-) Marion
I just want to look like I did a year ago! I guess that takes work and I have to just work harder. I think working with weights really make a difference. I know as you get older the sagging starts taking over no matter what you do, but maybe I can delay some of it.
DeleteThanks
It can only get better this week! We have all been there, and next week I am going to be there. We leave for our cruise, and I know there will be lots of food!
ReplyDeleteI have said a prayer regarding your test....I hope everything comes back just fine.
Take care,
Frances
Thanks for the prayers, and enjoy your cruise.
DeleteI know that you don't know me but when you say things like "I didn't do anything right", I want to reach into the computer screen and give you a great big hug. Granted, I don't know how tall you are but 180 doesn't seem big to me. Keep exercising and eating right because it feels good and it's good for you, but don't sweat the numbers.
ReplyDeleteI am about 5'5". I guess I just really want to be healthier, and I get a little upset with myself when I don't keep moving forward.
DeleteI just started a "Biggest Loser" challenge at work. I'm still 20lbs over my ore-pregnancy weight ("baby" is 8) and 40lbs over my wedding day (married almost 16 years!) weight. My mom is maybe 92 l s and always gave me grief over my weight. It's not like she eats well or exercises. Apparently I didn't take after her. I would tell her that as long as I'm healthy, it's okay. She is on lots of meds and I was not. Well, now I'm taking cholesterol mess (lowest dose) and pre- pre-diabetic.
ReplyDeleteWe do the best we can! I'm going to follow your voyage.
Come check out my A to Z! Jen Hemming and Hawing Again
Well the doctor says the best thing you can do as a pre-diabetic is exercise. Just because you aren't as small as your mom doesn't mean you aren't healthier than she is. Good luck with the "Biggest Loser".
DeleteWeighing in after a vacation is the worst. I have so much trouble staying on track when I am eating every meal out at restaurants and usually crave a healthy home cooked meal by the end of the vacation!
ReplyDeleteYes, I was really ready for some home cooking!! Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteI myself am struggling to lose weight. I just found your blog from a comment you made on mine on one of the A to Z challenge posts. I just wanted to say that no matter what you are very brave to post about your challenge to lose weight. I'm sure you will reach your goal weight no matter what it is simply because if you are able to post about it you will be able to do it.
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